Finding Your Grounding Point Through Perceived Chaos

I remember this statement from my days in school: "First, there was Chaos, and then there was Gaia..."  In the time of Chaos, the earth was a massive land mass surrounded by water before it broke apart and became separated by water.  There was no organisation to the planet whatsoever.  With Gaia, there was balance and organisation between organic and inorganic life on Earth.  According to Wikipedia:

The Gaia hypothesis, also known as Gaia theory or Gaia principle, proposes that organisms interact with their inorganic surroundings on Earth to form a self-regulating, complex system that contributes to maintaining the conditions for life on the planet.  (Retrieved from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gaia_hypothesis)

Chaos and Gaia came to me this evening as I was still trying to get out of my head.  You see, I am now on turbulent ground and am trying to remain on my feet.  The week at the office has not been the greatest and I admit that I was pretty close to hitting that breaking point - the point where I feel like I am going to crash and burn.  Today was spent eating all the wrong foods that do not agree with me, and feeling really low.  In my life, I am thinking of goals that I am enthusiastically working towards.  However, I need to find my grounding point.  Chaos is a perception that lives in the head.  I want to be able to clear that so that I can be present and balanced like Gaia.

My evening was spent laying in savasana during this evening's Deep Flow class.  My body was tired from all the thinking, all the decision making, and all the running on the corporate treadmill.  I found myself pondering what my purpose really is and wondering if I can truly believe that I am good enough to go after all I want to. I also found myself wondering if people thought of my as being "good enough". Eventually, I got just enough energy to get through the final hour as I led Brian through a shadowing session as an in-class assistant.  I was now able to hold the space not only for the students on the mat, but also for Brian who is in the process of learning what it is like to assist a Baptiste Power Vinyasa class.  This came from me shifting my energy and coming back to the present with more breath - Now here from nowhere.  Baron Baptiste said it best when he said "You are either now here, or nowhere". With the help of a couple of friends, I was able to ease up on myself and take a step back for a moment.  Now to reorganise goals and priorities with some new insights that have been gained through this latest experience.

Now it's time to celebrate before heading back to the drawing board I go where I shall now forge through on doing things that match my core values and purpose.  Finding balance will also be top priority.  And now for the first goal - Finish my Baptiste Certification requirements and get certified!

Namaste...