What an interesting way to end the previous week... I have been dealing with some lack of energy over the past week which has threatened to send me over the edge where physical comfort was concerned. As a result, I missed the opportunity to test my physical strength at the O-Course in Toronto. Oh well, 2013 is definitely going to be interesting where that one is concerned.
One of the burning questions that came to mind was how some people operate. An individual - I will call him "ArB" - who was once a part of my life and disappeared decided to make an appearance and reach out to me last week. I will not get into specifics where background is concerned but I will say that I was blown away by this surprise. I immediately questioned ArB's agenda ("What now?" "What does he really want?" "Why now?") and jumped to conclusions as to what he may be after ("Hmm... things may not be working out so he wants to reach out for what he ran away from...").
How did I really deal with this? I actually reached out and got support. My support network, who knew the background to this plot, reassured me that my decision to let it be and not to go back into the past was the best one I could ever make. While I did bring up some residual anger and hurt, I actually felt liberated in not catering to ArB's random reaches.
And so, I shall move forward in my life! I am now working through what is coming up for me and trying to just sit with what is in order to gain some clarity. In the meantime, I am acknowledging that wonders will never cease in this life. It is how I handle those wonders that will determine how I live my life.
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