Since the month of May, I have been paying more attention to myself. I have completed 200 hours of teacher training at Power Yoga Canada and have since taught three classes with hopes of teaching many more this coming fall. I have thoroughly enjoyed teaching and guiding the students on the mat as they flow through the vinyasas and come into their power. I have also enjoyed becoming more involved in the yoga community through Power Yoga Canada. Following the Baptiste Power Vinyasa practise, I have had many aha moments and small breakthroughs that have seemed big at the time. The other ladies who were in my class have become like sisters. We still get together, support each other, share with each other, and miss each other when we are not together. We have also developed an extended connection with the rest of the Power Yoga Canada community - teachers and fellow students alike.
Along with numerous other up and coming teachers, I am currently participating in a new developmental programme - Padawan Training. It is a mentorship programme that groups us with PYC's senior teachers. For all you Star Wars buffs out there, here how it goes: We are the Padawans. Our senior teachers are the Jedi Knights, and Pauline and Kinndli are the Jedi Masters. Through practise teaching sessions and live classes, we will receive live coaching and feedback by our Knights. They will raise us up to be bigger than we currently are and we will shine.
When I say "paying more attention to myself", I am saying that I have developed a lot more intuition where my being is concerned. I can now tell when things do not feel right within myself, as well as what feels right. This applies both physically, and emotionally.
On the running scene, I have slowly started coming back into the world of racing. However, my approach has been different. I have stopped caring about going all out and hard. Instead, I treat each run as an extension of my yoga practise. From "Trying Easy", I have seen some great results. My times have naturally fallen, and I feel much lighter on my feet. There have been some tough times in the last two races, but when I look back at the results and reflect upon where I am now to where I was in the last three years, I am where I want to be now. I really do not want the pressure of standings, and having to do every single run to run my ego. I would like to go out there and have fun. If it is not fun, I do not want to be doing it. My volunteer involvement in the ultra scene has also increased. I have volunteered, crewed, and paced many runners out there this season. Some have succeeded, and some will try again but I am happy just knowing that my contributions have made a difference to each runner's experience.
I have also continued to volunteer my time with the MS Society for the key fundraising events that take place each summer. Each experience was positive and I felt my contributions - along with the other volunteers - made a difference to the events we were at.
En ce moment, je suis un peu brouillé et inquiète. Il y a quelque temps quand j'essaye comprendrequelqu'un(e) ou quelque chose mais ça me fait plus brouillé. Ce n'est pas juste la vie - C'est ma vie! Je suis très fatigué - Fatigué du stresse, des jeux, et de la guerre entre les émotions. Je préfére avoir l'énergie - l'énergie qui n'est pas negative, mais positive. Je n'ai pas besoins les blocs. Ils réprésentent l'ego. Mon ego et forte maintenant. Il me rend une petite personne. Je doit être une personne qui est plus grande. Comment? Je sais que je doit exprimer les émotions. Je doit crier et communiquer en plus. Je veux vivir avec la force et crier "SO WHAT?!" sur les toits!
Le sigh... I needed to express that last point... Note to self was in order there. It was also a need for me to come into my power and stop playing small. I have been called out by my fellow yogis for doing just that - playing small! Playing small has not netted me any real gains when I needed it. In fact, it has done the opposite. Right now, I am working on creating the reality I want by harbouring the belief that I am up to something big.
Friends, it has been a long time coming. I have looked forward to returning to blogging in the last little while and look forward to keeping this up. I believe that if I can motivate at least one person in my lifetime by blogging, I have done my job. At the same time, I did not sweat the fact that I have not blogged in a long time. I guess the break was inevitable. My life has not been on hold while I was blogging. It has been evolving continuously, as it is now doing as I compose this entry.
To close off, I leave you this Pearl of Wisdom from Marianne Williamson as taken from the Pearls of Wisdom site (directly copied and pasted)...
Our Deepest Fear
Marianne Williamson
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
Author - Marianne Williamson
From her book "A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles", Harper Collins, 1992 - Chapter 7, Section 3, Pg. 190-191.
This passage is often mistakenly attributed to Nelson Mandela's Inauguration Address in Cape Town, 1994
Artwork © Kirk Reinert
Welcome back! Sounds like you are in a great place :-)
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