I find myself looking back to where I was, and where I am right now. So much has happened since the year has begun, I find it surreal at times. The world moves at a steady pace throughout its journey...
The ladies and I have two weekends to go before we qualify as certified yoga teachers. The past six weekends have gone by so fast! The course was definitely quite intensive. Within eight intense weekends, we have to learn everything from the anatomy, yoga history, and philosophy, right down to the asanas, sequencing a practise, and the art of teaching. There is quite a bit more to it too.
Last weekend, Kinndli emphasised the need to approach things with a sense of urgency. Basically, we are to take a "now or never" approach to life. We only have one chance to shine and we must seize it. Carpe Diem...
As I type this, I can't help but reflect on this past weekend. While there may have been a shift the past few weeks, there was a definitely a shift this weekend. It was physically and mentally quite draining. For some of us, the emotional layers that have been stuck to us were being peeled off once again. That feeling of being exposed is quite something. It can bring up old feelings from the past and feelings of vulnerability in the present. It is the belief that facing these feelings and moving on with a new way of being will help us to become stronger yoga teachers.
Sadly, our group of nine is now a group of eight...
One of the ladies, Dallas, is now in the hospital. She is the one who would diligently crawl up three flights of stairs in pain to sit among us and learn. She was battling back pain and it would often cripple her. When she did not show up the previous week, we all worried because no one could reach her by phone or by email. An email was later sent to us all to let us know that Dallas is now battling cancer. This round is a recurrence and it has metastasised to her spinal column, which explains the chronic back pain.
Our group has come together quite nicely. I sense there is a closeness between us now. We now share more. At the beginning, we used to go our separate ways during breaks and lunch. Now, we all carpool or walk and have lunch together, or stay back and enjoy lunch with someone else. No one is ever really alone at that time. We have all come together and extended our love to Dallas by visiting her at different times. While the visits tire her out, she keeps her spirits up and enjoys the company she gets while her mother monitors the visiting times. She was especially appreciative when we handed her a handout on the Chakras as this is one of her favourite topics.
The shift I am feeling in the teacher training programme has extended to my life in general. I cannot help but contemplate about the path I wish to choose for myself. As I look to my life, I realise that things are not the same anymore. My mindset has definitely changed and I am seeing things in a different light. As much as I feel intimidated by the pace of the intensive training, I realise that I really have learned a lot from the beginning of the course to now.
I do miss some of my friends - particularly the running gang. When I was helping to mark the Seaton Trail for last Saturday's race, I couldn't believe how long it has been since I connected with them. I'm hoping that this upcoming weekend will work to my advantage as I do want to connect with the gang. I have also encountered a couple friends from the past. Reconnecting with them was interesting to say the least. One of them had a couple things to say to me from the past. I pleasantly surprised myself by holding my composure and not reacting to it. When I do meet up with that friend later on, I will only listen as I feel he is not quite finished...
On the ultra running front, I am in the process of re-evaluating my plans once again. Due to intense studying, my running has been few and far between. I guess the rest my body has been getting has been beneficial though. I am not race ready at this time and will need to build up again. More details to follow at a later time...
OK, enough rambling for the time being... Back to reality!
The ladies and I have two weekends to go before we qualify as certified yoga teachers. The past six weekends have gone by so fast! The course was definitely quite intensive. Within eight intense weekends, we have to learn everything from the anatomy, yoga history, and philosophy, right down to the asanas, sequencing a practise, and the art of teaching. There is quite a bit more to it too.
Last weekend, Kinndli emphasised the need to approach things with a sense of urgency. Basically, we are to take a "now or never" approach to life. We only have one chance to shine and we must seize it. Carpe Diem...
As I type this, I can't help but reflect on this past weekend. While there may have been a shift the past few weeks, there was a definitely a shift this weekend. It was physically and mentally quite draining. For some of us, the emotional layers that have been stuck to us were being peeled off once again. That feeling of being exposed is quite something. It can bring up old feelings from the past and feelings of vulnerability in the present. It is the belief that facing these feelings and moving on with a new way of being will help us to become stronger yoga teachers.
Sadly, our group of nine is now a group of eight...
One of the ladies, Dallas, is now in the hospital. She is the one who would diligently crawl up three flights of stairs in pain to sit among us and learn. She was battling back pain and it would often cripple her. When she did not show up the previous week, we all worried because no one could reach her by phone or by email. An email was later sent to us all to let us know that Dallas is now battling cancer. This round is a recurrence and it has metastasised to her spinal column, which explains the chronic back pain.
Our group has come together quite nicely. I sense there is a closeness between us now. We now share more. At the beginning, we used to go our separate ways during breaks and lunch. Now, we all carpool or walk and have lunch together, or stay back and enjoy lunch with someone else. No one is ever really alone at that time. We have all come together and extended our love to Dallas by visiting her at different times. While the visits tire her out, she keeps her spirits up and enjoys the company she gets while her mother monitors the visiting times. She was especially appreciative when we handed her a handout on the Chakras as this is one of her favourite topics.
The shift I am feeling in the teacher training programme has extended to my life in general. I cannot help but contemplate about the path I wish to choose for myself. As I look to my life, I realise that things are not the same anymore. My mindset has definitely changed and I am seeing things in a different light. As much as I feel intimidated by the pace of the intensive training, I realise that I really have learned a lot from the beginning of the course to now.
I do miss some of my friends - particularly the running gang. When I was helping to mark the Seaton Trail for last Saturday's race, I couldn't believe how long it has been since I connected with them. I'm hoping that this upcoming weekend will work to my advantage as I do want to connect with the gang. I have also encountered a couple friends from the past. Reconnecting with them was interesting to say the least. One of them had a couple things to say to me from the past. I pleasantly surprised myself by holding my composure and not reacting to it. When I do meet up with that friend later on, I will only listen as I feel he is not quite finished...
On the ultra running front, I am in the process of re-evaluating my plans once again. Due to intense studying, my running has been few and far between. I guess the rest my body has been getting has been beneficial though. I am not race ready at this time and will need to build up again. More details to follow at a later time...
OK, enough rambling for the time being... Back to reality!
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