That question has been running through my head after I left Loki Lounge last night in a hurry to catch my bus home. I felt really bad for leaving and would have loved to stay...
After leaving the gym, I walked down to Loki Lounge to support Kinndli as she tirelessly raises funds for the Africa Yoga Project. Her brother's band was one of the bands lined up to play. I arrived at the club and checked my bag in with security to get it out of the way. After greeting Kinndli, I found a seat in the lounge and let the sweet sounds of the House music genre wash over me...
Problems started for me when that anxious feeling started to overcome me. You see, my biggest challenge is being out with people I do not know. Clubs, bars, and lounges are places where I do not venture. I thought this would be different because some of the people there are the same people I practice with on the mat. For the entire time I was there, I did not leave my seat and I couldn't bring myself to talk to anyone. I finally snapped. I picked up my stuff and bolted. I did not want a ride home and I did not want to be mixed in with the crowd. I just wanted to be home.
There were many thoughts going through my mind as I was headed for the bus. For the most part I was beating myself up for having that anxiety attack and not having the good time I wanted to have. I was starting to have negative thoughts.
Right now, I am rediscovering the space I want to be in right now. I am learning to accept that there are certain situations that will pose a great challenge to me. I am learning to be comfortable in my skin and to not try so hard to live in a lie. I just had a chat with a friend of mine about what happened and things have been put into perspective. Now I will strive to continue to move forward and continue to enjoy the things I do in my own space with no pretenses...
After leaving the gym, I walked down to Loki Lounge to support Kinndli as she tirelessly raises funds for the Africa Yoga Project. Her brother's band was one of the bands lined up to play. I arrived at the club and checked my bag in with security to get it out of the way. After greeting Kinndli, I found a seat in the lounge and let the sweet sounds of the House music genre wash over me...
Problems started for me when that anxious feeling started to overcome me. You see, my biggest challenge is being out with people I do not know. Clubs, bars, and lounges are places where I do not venture. I thought this would be different because some of the people there are the same people I practice with on the mat. For the entire time I was there, I did not leave my seat and I couldn't bring myself to talk to anyone. I finally snapped. I picked up my stuff and bolted. I did not want a ride home and I did not want to be mixed in with the crowd. I just wanted to be home.
There were many thoughts going through my mind as I was headed for the bus. For the most part I was beating myself up for having that anxiety attack and not having the good time I wanted to have. I was starting to have negative thoughts.
Right now, I am rediscovering the space I want to be in right now. I am learning to accept that there are certain situations that will pose a great challenge to me. I am learning to be comfortable in my skin and to not try so hard to live in a lie. I just had a chat with a friend of mine about what happened and things have been put into perspective. Now I will strive to continue to move forward and continue to enjoy the things I do in my own space with no pretenses...
Thank you for sharing this...it helps me to understand you a little better. I feel lucky you find me a comfortable friend...
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